Can you be an ironic existentialist?

Over the last few hours I’ve been thinking more about this quote, which I came across yesterday.

Opposites, all the time

I couldn’t sleep last night and when I can’t sleep I am cursed with a brain that struggles to shut down. In my busy brain state, I decided that there are in fact many similar opposing, contradictory forces in our lives, in addition to the desire to communicate and the desire to hide. They act to inspire and repel us at the same time. They drive us and terrify us. They must have a purpose (or do we just notice them?). Perhaps they are spin-offs from the notion of the good and the bad, the angle and the devil, the should and the should not and the yin and the yang.

This drives us all in our actions and reactions

Related to this idea of the opposing forces in life is the prevalence of irony in life. Irony is everywhere. Irony is about opposing forces. What is irony? Irony is, to quote Ethan Hawke in Reality Bites: ‘It’s when the actual meaning is the complete opposite from the literal meaning.’ Clever cloggs, he is.

This man knows what irony is

However, as I see it, to quote Winona Ryder in the same film: ‘I know it when I see it.’ I love irony. I see irony all the time. It follows me around. It jumps out at me. Perhaps I have an irony-dar. I like to use irony in my art in some way (remember those abandoned balloon bits and of course repetition was all about irony). Often I think I use irony without realising it, ironically. 

I believe that there needs to be more acceptance of humour in art than there currently is. A couple of years ago I saw an exhibition at the Wolverhampton Art Gallery that explored humour in art and it was very inspiring and, not at all ironically, very funny. Artists often use humour in their art and this should be recognised more. Humour is perhaps more frequently used than realised to explore the human condition in all areas of creative pursuits. Artists are often stereotyped to be depressive existentialists, exploring the point of existence through creativity, but with a heavy heart. Can one be a funny existentialist? Absolutely, yes. Look at Monty Python, they were funny existentialists extraordinaire and they were very, very creative. They were definitely ironic, depressive artists.

He won’t haggle!

I wonder if perhaps for many creative people, being funny acts to deflate from the depressing reality that there really is no meaning to it all and all you do is die in the end, alone. You have to laugh about it or you’d just live in a well of despair and nobody wants to do that if they can help it. I certainly don’t.

I hadn’t quite thought it through before but perhaps my irony-dar is part of my desire to find meaning and my desire to feel better about the lack of meaning when perhaps there really isn’t one.

Ironic, eh?

 

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Self-doubt – do all artists, all of humanity, suffer?

If I’m an artist then this is me all of the time: torn between wanting to communicate something inside me that is exploding to come out and wanting to hibernate from the world.

Opposites, all the time

(But I never really know whether I am an ‘artist’ or not, whatever an ‘artist’ is and whether it is in fact something in all of us (which I actually believe to be true).)

Thinking of the concept of an ‘artist’, then I’m struggling at the moment with overwhelming self-doubt with that identity and as, also, more importantly, as a ‘good enough’ person. I don’t feel like I’m doing a great job at this humanity lark right now. I accept this doubt though as ‘normal’. I know we all feel it at times. We don’t say it to each other enough.

Joseph Beuys had it right: ‘Every human being is an artist’.

I’m an artist, are you?

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The futility of no narrative

Just under two years ago, I wrote a dissertation for my fine art degree about whether it is possible for art to exist without narrative. I talked about still-life art and the ‘narrative turn’ in the digital age and I concluded that I didn’t think it was possible to have art without narrative despite many 20th-century attempts at creating narrative-free art. 

Two years later, I have been thinking about this again, and I haven’t changed my conclusion.

Everything we do has a narrative. Every day is a narrative. Every hour is a narrative. Take today for example: ‘I woke up at 7.54am and realised that I had to get up soon as I needed to get some ham, cheese and bread with which to feed our guests. I eventually rose at 8.20am after having a much-needed cup of coffee and a much-craved browse of social media. I decided to wear a stripy polo-neck top and black skirt. It was supposed to rain later so I didn’t expect it to be hot. For breakfast I had a roll with cheese and ketchup and a glass of orange juice.’ I could go on but the story of my day (at least the start of it) isn’t terribly exciting. However, my point is that it IS a story. There is a narrative. I’m not sure that I have the audience gripped here, but there is a narrative that someone somewhere can relate to (perhaps someone who also likes cheese and ketchup for breakfast).

Staple breakfast fodder

Later on today, as I was about to watch the latest episode of Game of Thrones (which, let’s face it, is pregnant with narrative), I was thinking about the lives of myself and a group of friends of mine. I was thinking about how myself and these friends have recently had some hard issues to deal with and how we have knitted these issues together without realising it into the fabric of our changing relationships. The last few months of our lives, intertwined as they have been, have been tough. Our lives, bonded together like this, and if told out loud, sound a little like a soup opera. Is that a good thing? Totally, it is a normal thing.

The narrative that the people of the year 2017 are lapping up like thirsty puppies

In soup operas, people eat, drink, love, fight, sleep, tangle, die, marry, divorce, and so on. This is just like our lives.

Everything is a narrative. Every trip to the shops, every conversation, every night out and, as I argued in my dissertation, so also is our response to a piece of art. Paint a picture, post it to Facebook, show it to someone, they will give it a narrative. Trust me. They will. Do it. I know, because they recently did it to me. I liked that they did this. This to me was A Good Thing.

It is hard to argue against the ‘search for a narrative’ argument for a picture that shows a scene, an image or even a shape or line. How about paintings such as this one?

Malevich’s very famous Black Square

Surely, no narrative can be conjured up from this? I disagree: the absence of an image is the narrative. The discussion about what it means, what the response is, is the narrative. The emotional reaction one might get from staring at this painting is itself part of the narrative, or perhaps the start of a narrative.

We find narrative comforting. We cannot live without it. Why? That is what I’m not sure about. Without narrative we feel great anxiety. If we feel that our life has no meaning, no direction, no future, no narrative then we feel anxiety. It is the lack of a narrative that we perceive and it is that lack that makes us feel uneasy and unwell. So if we see no narrative in art, we can’t cope. We search for it desperately, even in a black square, to bring us back to somewhere where we feel grounded again.

We look to art to provide us with narrative when we feel there is narrative lacking in our lives. If we can’t find that narrative,what is left? Empty black space for eternity. Nobody wants that, surely? Even black space has a story to tell.

 

 

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Now it’s your turn, Grayson!

I now can’t imagine writing a normal review ever again. I think this is the future for me.

Grayson Perry

The Most Popular Art Exhibition Ever!

8 June–10 September 2017

Doodles pregnant with meaning on pots, prints and tapestries, this collection speaks loud. Angry about Brexit? Look, ponder, and reconsider: leave feeling renewed empathy for those you might not agree with. Quirky, colourful everyday objects amuse and entertain: gain insight into the artist’s serious yet fun take on this world.

Here! Here!

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The Royal Academy Summer Exhibition in 50 words – is that possible?

I’ve come to find the concept of writing a 50-word review both challenging and addictive. So here’s another one.

RA Summer Exhibition 2017

Royal Academy of Arts, London

13 June–20 August 2017

An annual exhibition: an explosion of colour, shape, texture, concept and skill. The senses are treated to room upon room of carefully-placed, yet seemingly random, pieces which delight at every turn. Much inspires me, still learning as I am, from masters of the trade to fellow armatures as I.

The best way to view this exhibition is with a titled head

 

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I Want! I Want! Art and Technology in just 50 words

Finally, here is the third 50-word review of the weekend. 

I Want! I Want!

Art & Technology

Birmingham Museum & Art Gallery

1 April–1 October 2017

‘An exhibition of the symbiosis of human with data where art and technology blend, merging the real with the virtual, traditional with contemporary, static with motion and the past with the present. Diverse ideas are explored through unconventional mediums: from philosophical space invaders to a dawn chorus of human voices.’

My favourite piece – philosophical space invaders

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Sheela Gowda – it’s your turn to be reduced to 50 words

No explanation needed, see previous post. Brevity rocks!

Sheela Gowda

Ikon Gallery, Birmingham

16 June–3 September 2017

‘Works merge and react with the gallery space creating an immense presence of different textures and colours. There is a sense of movement and the cycle of life, ironically shown through a stilling of objects and images. Space is not wasted; the objects suffused with emotion.’

Colour, texture, image and emotion

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Nigel Langford – reduced to just 50 words

Recently, one of the tutors at the University of Wolverhampton challenged me to write reviews of any art exhibitions I happen to visit in just 50 words. Immediately my reaction was: ‘challenge accepted!’ (To steal unashamedly from How I Met Your Mother.)

The below is my first attempt at a 50-word review, of an exhibition opening I attended on Friday at Temple Street Studios in Wolverhampton.

Me at the opening, trying to think up 50 words to sum it all up

Nigel Langford

A passive state of contemplation

Temple Street Studios, Wolverhampton

14–21 July 2017

‘This exhibition is a dichotomy. There is both contrast – style, medium, effect and perspective – and commonality – ordinary, everyday, people, time and identity. Paintings of cropped unidentifiable yet familiar, unknown yet knowable individuals suspended against a monochrome background show calm, contemplative moments. Sketches of others still movement and life.’

One of Nigel Langford’s paintings

What do you think? Is it any good? Does it make you want to see the work for yourself? I hope so.

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If you don’t get it, just forget it

The Wolverhampton School of Art Fine Art Degree Show is in full swing as I type. I am writing this blog while sitting on the floor supposedly ‘manning’ the exhibition (doing a stint of manning the exhibition, I should say). There’s a lot of scope for thinking when you are manning an exhibition for six hours. There’s a lot of silence, interspersed now and then with the sounds of children and grown-up pondering. There’s a lot of time to fill, with thoughts and doubts.

My view from where I am sat

Today I’m thinking about criticism and how to deal with it. Three days ago the Wolverhampton Express and Star posted a review article about the degree show. Here it is. 

I’m going to put aside how badly written this article is (which it is, by the way, and the photographs are especially appalling) for fear of being accused of bitterness (I am a little). My main reason for writing about this article is that I get a mention, albeit a negative one. Here is the paragraph which refers to my work:

One student’s inspiration for the work displayed came just three weeks ago and is an interactive work to help viewers engage with their ideas on repetition. Clearly a lot of thought and effort has gone into its creation but there is just too much information so that it is difficult to absorb what the work has set out to achieve. Perhaps a case of less is more.

When I first read this comment my reaction was one of shock and then devastation. I wasn’t feeling too chirpy before I read it and reading it sent me over the edge and firmly into the abyss of self-pity. I remained there for the rest of the evening and into the night. While down there, I catastrophized into the stratosphere. I was due to give a presentation the following day on my work. I decided that evening, while sat there in my wallowy abyss, that presenting would now be impossible. I also decided not to do the MA in September and I was probably never going to draw anything ever again.

Eventually I dragged myself into bed to sleep. At about 3am I woke up and while I tried to settle back to sleep again my mind returned to the article and my response to it. Of course the content of the article hadn’t changed but I decided at that point in the darkness that I needed to change my response to it.

Firstly, I needed to be flattered that the person who wrote it had gone out of his way to mention my work. He hadn’t mentioned everyone’s work, he’d been selective. So this meant that he had had a response to my work which he thought worth talking about. That in itself is A Good Thing.

My stuff

Secondly, I needed to consider the possibility that the person who wrote it might actually be ever so slightly wrong in his judgement. Realising this made me see that we shouldn’t always assume that everyone else is ‘right’ and we are ‘wrong’. In fact, he had completely missed the point about what my artwork was about – ‘less is more’ was meant to be a criticism, but it was in fact a complement. ‘Less is more’ is my point (damn that would have made a good title). The whole point of it being ‘more’ than ‘less’ was to illustrate how everything in our lives, overshadowed so extensively with imagery and text,  both in the real and virtual worlds, is much more of the ‘more’ and not of the ‘less’. In fact, he had successfully illustrated my message by his aversion to the overloading of information and colour and images in the artwork. He had got the point without getting the point. He was being accidentally ironic. This realisation completely changed my mood and I decided that I should in fact seek him out and shake his hand.

Finally, I spotted an irony of the article as a whole. This article, presumably (I don’t know for sure as I haven’t seen the physical paper in which this article appeared) has been mass produced hundreds of times over. It has also appeared online. It is possible that it will also appear elsewhere online. It will also be shared, tweeted, forwarded, emailed by various people. In other words, it will be repeated and spread. It will become part of that overload of information, part of that ‘more which should be less’ to which he is adverse to. So well done to Mr Jerald Smith for being repetitive!

So at 3am I decided that I was able to continue with the presentation and I was also going to do the MA next year. In fact, I decided to include the quote in my presentation to illustrate an important aspect of being an artist: coping with criticism. 

Not everybody is going to ‘get’ art. In fact, in a way it is good that not everybody gets it. I don’t think I want to be the sort of artist that everyone ‘gets’ or ‘likes’. That actually seems a rather dull existence. Not everybody ‘gets’ everybody so why should it bet the same with art?

Kandinsky, this article states, claimed that: ‘…true artists should be prepared to be misunderstood throughout their lifetimes.’ I think that is a valid point. There are some very well known artists who spent years being misunderstood before they were given the kudos they deserved.

Umberto Eco once argued (although I can’t now find the reference) that if the people like it, then the art work fails. That might sound a little extreme. However, I don’t think he means that a successful artwork won’t provoke a response. A response is crucial. I think he is referring to total understanding or total ‘liking’ of an artwork. A successful artwork should definitely provoke something and sometimes confusion, distaste or dislike.

Umberto Eco

A lack of complete understanding or appreciation to me implies to me that there might be a level of depth that is beyond that initial impact the viewer has on coming across a piece of art. That means that they need to spend more time getting to know the artwork, or retrospectively thinking about it, considering what it might mean to them. 

So I will take this criticism on board, respect his response, and use it in the sense of irony that it wasn’t intended.

Thank you Jerald Smith! 

 

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Endings and Beginnings

Last night was the Private View of the degree show of the 2017 soon-to-be graduates in BA Fine Art at the Wolverhampton School of Art.

The Poster

This year, I am one of the soon-to-be graduates. As I’m a part-time student, I took part in last year’s degree show. So this is my second time.

This year, though, the feeling has been different. I have a rightful place in the degree show rather than being a pretender. Last year, I felt as if I was being granted a favour by being given some space to exhibit. Although I took part in the private view and all the excitement, I didn’t feel the same high level of emotion and celebration as my fellow students. This year, I felt it.

Today is the day after the Private View and today has been an odd day. I have definitely felt the post-Private-View blues. I was awake for 22 hours yesterday, starting with excitement over the general election result (hung parliament, in case you are reading this in twenty years time) and then excitement over the degree show. The day was fuelled by adrenaline, nerves, excitement, joy, smiles, alcohol, sore feet, real lady tights, nail polish, odd conversations, good friends, family, wine, gin, music, smoke, people, crowds, art, happiness and the odd crisp. After the degree show, which now is a bit of a blur, I went out and drank more and talked and sat and talked and drank even more and talked until 2am.

Me at about 1am last night sitting in the fertility chair

Today, The Next Day, I’ve been back at the School of Art to invigilate the exhibition and it has been a really quiet, solemn kind of day. I haven’t been entirely content today. I’ve spent far too much time engaged in Facebook Time Suckage. I’ve been oddly sad. I’ve stood for far too long. I know this lull is entirely normal for the day after a big event. I mean, have any of your ever gotten married? Today has been the Boxing Day of the Private View.

My stuff

I have spent today watching the public walk around the degree show. I’ve found it oddly compelling watching people look at art. Secretly, I quite love it. I’ve done it for 5 hours, with just a break for lunch. I’ve seen people wonder, wander and ponder. I haven’t done much else (except Facebook time suckage).  

I’m hoping that once the weekend is over I will come back up again (emotionally speaking), and recover from this post-Private-View slump. I have to as next week is going to be busy.

And also, after all, this is an ending but it is also the start of the breathing space I need before a new beginning: otherwise know as a Masters in Fine Art. Woohoo!

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